this is a thing became everything

Honestly, i've been gone for so long from this weird-blog i've ever had . I forget how it is used to be , and now i'm learning how to make it this useful from now. I am not too interested in writing but i thing it could help me up to explore my feelings .

Now, i'm still wondering how a thing becomes everything in my whole life. I always have small doubts in my thought before i go to bed . I dont know why everything in my life sometimes going so bad and joyous. I ever wonder how if my life just fun and full of happiness inside, i know it is impossible but i need it . I cant go through and still keep like this if there are always bad memories . That's never get enough .